Writing.. The down side

Writing is not one if my favorite things. This may be because I am not that strong of a writer and my English teachers would always love marking my paper up with their pens because it would always need corrections. I feel that if i was strong writer that I may enjoy it but it's really not a fun thing to do. I have trouble coming up with a good topic sentence and showing strong support. I would need to be the one who goes to the library to get help. However I like to write whats on my mind even if it's different than everyone else's. I like to try and argue a point however I'm not very good at it. I tend to start sentences with the same word over and over again and I realize I do it but I feel like it's the best way to put that sentence so I usually don't change it. I also tend to shift away from the subject when I get really into the paper and when I'm finished and read it, it wasn't what I was going for in the beginning at all. When I get back papers that are always bad or have a lot of corrections, it tends to make feel like I am a horrible writer so I don't really enjoy it because I feel bad at it. I also tend to use too many pronouns and when the teacher reads my paper he/she doesn't really know what I'm trying to say. Now if you were me you couldn't be honest to yourself and say you like to write.